While speaking to entrepreneur Nikhil Kamath, the actor said, “I stopped crying very early on.
I didn’t even cry when my father passed away. When I was spending the night at the hospital, the doctor told me, ‘This is his last night, he is going to go anytime soon,’ I remember going up to the room and had a panic attack. I didn’t know how to express myself, there was too much happening that was to take. But I don’t think I have grieved, understood the loss.”
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Ranbir also admitted he was not particularly close to his father, though there was a lot of love between them. He added, “The one year we spent together in New York while his treatment was on, he often spoke about that. I was there for 45 days and one day he came and started crying. He has never shown that kind of weakness to me. It was so awkward for me because I didn’t know if I should hold him or hug him; I really realised the distance. I feel guilty that I didn’t have the grace to let go off the distance between us and go and hug him, give him some love.”
On not being overtly expressive then, Ranbir said, “You are also brought up a certain way where you’re told, ‘Now you are responsible’ and then certain things play on your mind, I have my mother, sister, wife, a child and my father passes away… Can I show my weakness? I don’t know what it is, but I just didn’t show it,” he added.